My Whole World Has Turned to Black…

Not more than 10 minutes ago i found out the worst news I could have ever found out.
I’ve just realised that my “boyfriend” had been cheating on me for..I don’t know how many months.
At the moment i’m just lying here in tears and my whle world has literally fallen apart.
I’ve done so much for this guy…I’ve never loved anyone as much as I love him and despite him telling me in the beginning that he’s cheated on every girlfriend he’s ever had, I gave him the benefit of the doubt.
I was so in love with him..

I thought he was different. I thought he felt the same way too. I even remember the first day he told me he loved, April 29th this year.

How could I have been so stupid?!
I pictured a future with this guy…I’ve done so much for him, helped him out when he was financially unable to…Now i’m beginning to realise that he’s probably been using me for money or attention.

I just….
Idon’t even know what to say…
Lies on top of lies on top of lies.

I feel sorry for his new girlfriend. He’s only going to do the same to her.

There aren’t enough words to describe how I am feeling right now… After 6 months of being with my heart and soul to him, expressing myself and opening up to him..he does this.

Am I that bad of a person? 
What have I done to deserve this??

I just want to die.

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